Traveled Roads Of A Promiscuous Girl Introduction

Introduction: The Definition Of Love

Love(lŭv) 1. A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person.

What is love? Can someone please tell me the answer? Because I can't. A lot of guys have said “ I love you” and were the ones who hurt me the most and I fell for it like an idiot. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not one of those many men bashers out there, but for me, I just feel as though there hasn't been a man willing enough to show me what a real man is...

I've been with every kind of guy imaginable, the gangsters, the players, the celebrities, & even the abusers. I've been through hell and high water looking for love. There were many day's where I felt like giving up, but every now and then, there would be a guy to rescue my heart, and eventually break it in the end. It would be a redundant story over and over again. You would have thought I learned my lesson by then. By the way, my name's Acilyah, in case you're wondering. I was born October 13, 1979 alongside my twin brother Shawn to a mom working for the army's Special Forces, and a father, known as a talent scout for wrestling entertainment. As you can pretty much guess I moved around a lot and that really put a damper on my love life on several occasions. However, in the midst of all of that... I did find someone, we've been together for the past three years and I've never met a man like him. I can't even find words to describe how much I love him. All I will tell you about him for now is that he's a R&B singer. Who exactly isn't important right now, I'll explain that whole scenario later. What I'm about to share with you, is my love story, or stories in a matter of speaking. Learn about me, and learn about my life. It's a personal adventure of love and deception that I'm willing to share. Hopefully you learn from my mistakes and don't make the same decisions I did when it comes to love.

Here I Stand...

Well I haven't written here since the summer. Feels good to get my thought's somewhere finnaly. So lately I've been in school bustin' my ass need I say. I did really well on my report card with a A in chemistry and B's in History ,P.E., and Spanish. Although I was expecting a higher grade in math than a C, I know why it is the way it is.. lol. Teacher's just have to get sick when grades are due. But oh well, gotta keep it movin and keep my eyes on the prize. I worked too hard to mess up now.
So I really gotta push myself and get back on track. Cause I feel like I'm losing my ground as of late, but knowing me I just need a little confidence boost then I'll be back on the road to victory.

Lyric's Inventory Of Design

I Finally got the chance to set up some sort of payment for myself lol. I'd like to introduce my new website/ business. It's called Lyric's Inventory of Design where I specialize in all aspects of the creative industry from video editing, to graphic design also in audio production whereas you might want a little mix of songs for a talent show or something rather of. I'm really excited about this and I hope to get some customers! I need the money god knows I do. lol. Well anyway if you know anyone who needs graphic design, a audio mix or a video editorial send them my way, they wont be disappointed!

Lil' Wayne's Comment...

Go Around The 2:50 Mark..

Now I'm gonna sit here and lie and say I'm one of Lil Wayne's biggest fans, but he was at least okay in my book, I would listen to his music here and there and all that mess, but after today he really lost a good portion of my respect. It's certain things you do, and certain things you don't do, and what he did was completely uncalled for. In a freestyle earlier this week he said

"I pledge allegiance to the flag
Michael Jackson is a FAG
Coca Cola, 7-Up, Pepsi Cola burned him up.."

Just where does he get off saying such a thing like that. I mean the man hasnt even been dead a month and his name is being spat on by rappers and the media who couldn't even compete to Michael's stature. I mean let the man rest already. There is no excuse for that, not even if he was just playing around or not, it's disrespectful. I mean you wouldnt want somebody saying that about you. At least Michael wasnt caught kissing another man in the mouth. He really has some nerve. Stuff like this really gets under my skin, and it just makes me lose respect for people especially when someone I idolize so much is disrespected in ways he didnt deserve. Michael never did anything to anyone and for people to still continue to treat him like that after his death just shows the true character in people. It's sad after his death, he's still not able to rest in peace. I just think all rappers and etc should keep Michaels name out of their mouths, respectfull or not. His soul needs to be at rest. As for Little Wayne... he has lost any respect he gained from me, I will not support him in anyway or form, because there is no excuse for his actions and thats that. What makes it worse is how he also jacked Aaliyah's song I Don't Wanna and not saying a damn thing about it... I don't see how he could have possible gotten this far in his career doing crap like this.

Rather Go Than Dissapoint....

Last year in August me and one of my cousin's Kayla had planned to go to see WWE RAW. Tickets were going on sale, and we both were excited. When the show came I let her down and went with my friends instead.. However now were talking about going again but this time we have almost every kid lol. We're all going to see the show and it should be really fun. The only problem now is were gonna have to sit in the upper levels. That almost immediately turned me off of going completely. So I tried looking on eBay, no avail, tried Razor Gator, no avail, and Stub Hub, but all the sites were too expensive for what my cousin's parents were willing to pay. So I tried to even win four tickets, but that didn't help either. I was praying to god, asking for a sign of some sort, someway we all can get there, and have good seats. However it seemed like I was doing it for all the wrong reasons, like I was doing it just because I didn't wanna sit there, but when you have people counting on you, you have to make sacrifices. So I was walking around with my head down, kind of upset. Until it hit me, hey this wont be the first time they sat in those seats, but it will be their first time to ever see a WWE show live, and I know they'd rather be there then be thinking about where their going to sit and be disappointed about not going at all. I especially felt that when my cousin called me talking about the show, I could tell he was excited, So I'd rather suck it up and sit in those seats then to disappoint people I love and care for. Now the only thing is, how am I going to get these tickets? lol.

My Horoscope Of The Day

LIBRA-

"Like the great duets of the ages, you and a certain someone make such beautiful music together. Right now, collaboration brings out the best in both of you, especially when it comes to work-related topics. This person may not have been your first choice, but you've turned out to be a first-class duo after all. So don't worry about hitting the high notes -- you'll reach them with ease."

Wow, it's so much truth to that. My horoscope never ceases to amaze me.

Self Doubt

Today, well yesterday, was my first vocal lesson. At least in my mind I haven't experienced anything like it. However I'm very disappointed in myself because I feel like I could have done better or could have had more faith in myself. Self doubt is a bitchhh. Makes me feel like I couldn't do something I know I could. So I've been sitting here trying to figure out if it was just me or if I'm even ready to take this step. I know I can it just makes things that much harder because I'm a perfectionist and when I feel like I didn't do my best or try my best I kind of close up from the world and go back into my shell. Especially when I get nervous, I may poke my head out a little but soon as I feel like I go too far, I'm so quick to rush back in that shell and not face it anymore. I don't know why I get like that sometimes, because there have been many other times where I've performed, but it hasn't been on this level. I just feel like I'm very secretive and so afraid of criticism that I let it get the best of me and not allow me to do the absolute best that I know I can. I have to break this habit though because if I don't I wont ever get anywhere. At least I know what I have to work on whereas there are other people who still haven't figured it out. On another note, Daryl ( Vocal Coach) was really cool. I was still warming up to him though so I can't say I got the whole experience yet. I don't know what the future holds for me, I just hope by next Wednesday the same fears from this week aren't there.